![]() My freshman year I was curious an I started dating girls and I got teased about being gay,and they said the only reason I was dating girls was because no guys wanted me. I still to this day I am insecure at times eating in front of people. There came points in time where I would fake sick just so I wouldn't have to face people at school, I stopped eating for awhile and cried myself to sleep because I was so hungry and I never ate at school because I didn't want people to think I was a pig. I was real into sports so I got the usual comments that I look like a boy and none was going to want me because I'm ugly. ![]() I always asked if I sucked my thumb and that I sound like a retard,when I talk. I had a real bad lip when I talked and still do to this day. Always being called Baby D from Friday and was asked all the time if I was hungry and that I looked like a cow because I wasn't the typical skinny beautiful girl. "I was bullied growing up about my weight. I'm saying stand up for yourself and never ever let anyone make you feel less then them, and never let anyone control your emotions cause if you do then they control you. Most of them are really p*****s and can't fight for shit. What I'm trying to say is bullied only f**k with you to make their selves look good. After me beating him, I got the respect I wanted. People still love it but all it took was one fight in the high school cafeteria with a well known bully. Yeah the shit talking was still there but people knew how far to push my buttons. I didn't have a older brother to stand up for me. I found my grandfathers 38 and put two bullets in it and played Russian roulette after I squeezed the trigger the 1st time, I just broke down crying. Who wanted to be with a guy that was the but of all jokes? I actually wanted to take my own life years ago. I was always depressed, no girls liked me. Everyday I went to school I knew it was gonna be something else. It was hard to tell anybody how I felt, so I took my anger out on my little brother because these so called friends made me hate myself. I've heard every ear and lip joke there was, but the sad part is when these kids made me feel like I wasn't nothing, and that I was worthless. A doctor told me there might be a time in my life that I might not be able to walk, but kids didn't give a s**t, it was all a joke to them. What people didn't know was about how bad my feet really were. I got talked about everything from my feet, to the way I walk, to my lips and ears. I got bullied and talked about from elementary to high school. ![]() Last night I found out that my son was getting bullied at school and it wasn't 1 person, it was a gang of people. Here is a story from Timothy Scott about his son who was getting bullied The best thing to do is to put some headphones on and just jam to music. Just because your Boy-Friend or Girl-Friend breaks up with you doesn't mean cut your self or committee suicide. My homie Bigdirty once said "If Your Heart Tells You Something Then You Follow It Strong." Alot of ya are still young and are not ready for A relationship. No matter what people say if you really want to be with a person you wouldn't care about what people. You can also be bully not just because how you look or dress but for the people you date as your boyfriend or girlfriend. Please just remember this quote from Austin Texas's Big Dirty Brigante once said "Forget About Your Pass Let Your Future Start Today Accomplish All Your Dreams Don't Just Let Em Fade Away" This pain seems overwhelming and permanent at the moment but with time and support, you can overcome your problems and the pain and suicidal feelings will pass. It only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. Feeling suicidal is not a character defect, and it doesn't mean that you are crazy, or weak, or flawed. You’re not alone many of us have had suicidal thoughts at some point in our lives. Suicide is never the answer or cutting your self or over dose. Remember your still a kid focus on your school,get your education. Your loves ones will be hurt and some might take their own lives. I wouldn't feel the pain anymore but then think about it. There was this one time I grab a blade and cut my hand because I wanted to end my life because I didn't know what else to do but I learn taking my own life was selfish. I was scare I didn't know who to tell or if there was someone to even tell. I'll go home sometimes bloody and bruise. I was call names like white boy, crack head, nerd hoe, bitch, and a lot more I was scare I didn't know what to do. The kids would push me,kick me,call my names. I was pick on because I was white than the other kids. I was poor when I had no food no clean water shoes with holes. People pick on me because I didn't have no new clothes, no new toys, nothing like they had. When I was young I was bully a lot both physical and emotionally.
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